Emblem

Uncertainty

 EarRing

The flip side of the previous poem... I'm amazed at how far I've come, but can I be sure that Tori is also getting as much out of this? I fear that my force of personality could be taking her down paths she do not wish to go, or are not yet ready for.. but I can only go by her words, her reactions, and this leads me to the conclusion that it is all good. 

Uncertainty
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     I call myself a slave.
     I submit to my Mistresses wishes.
     I desire to please her.
     But..

     Do I do this for her sake?
     Do I do it because I enjoy it?
     Do I do things for her pleasure?
     Or mine?

     Am I pushing her to do things?
     Am I demanding, bratty, forceful?
     Am I flogged because she wants to do this?
     Or not?

     I have no mental telepathy.
     I can not read her mind.
     I do not know her soul,
     Yet.

     Her smile as she greets me,
     Her laugh as we talk,
     Her eyes as she looks at me
     Predatorially.

     I know I get pleasure from serving,
     I hope she is pleased as well.
     I believe our joy is mutual.
     Shared.